The Best Christmas Present we could ever get.

Good tears are a flowing people...

they are flowing and it feels so good.

This morning we were told that Mason was found to be eligible for the At-home program.

Not only was he found to be eligible for Medical benefits but also Respite.

Just pure shock and excitement at getting anything...

but getting both Medical and Respite. 

Wow. Just. Wow.

This means that most of what Mason needs is going to be covered. 

I cant even tell you what this means to us.

AHHHHH!!!!

::tears and snot everywhere::

We have been fighting for so long...

We know that the fight is not even kind of over, but at least people are now joining our team.

A strong team wins the game right!

The past five weeks have been an absolute whirlwind for us.

First we get two diagnosis in one week.

For those who do not know yet Mason was diagnosed with Smith-Magenis Syndrome and Autism.

In the past five weeks we have gone to having very little funding...

whatever we could get from Charities.

To know being approved for Autism therapy, Medical benefits, and Respite.

Talk about a complete three sixty to last year.

Not even going to think back to where we were last year. 

In the past couple months we have had several donations, some big & some small.

It has all helped.

We have presents that are coming for our boys for under the tree & a food hamper coming from the church.

It may seem silly because my Mom is making Turkey dinner on Christmas day, but I really would love to make my children their own turkey Dinner here at our house on Christmas Eve. 

It just wasn't in the budget with everything else this month. 

I can't even wait.

Maybe Mason will even enjoy a few bites of what he's allowed.

We want to make it clear that my Nick does work, in fact he has one day off this week.

 Nick works so hard for us. 

We sit in lower middle class income, and we would have been alright even if I didn't go back to work ever. 

But the costs of Mason have cost us more...

Like so many people we had to sell our home, use our saving and then go so far into debt.

It will take a miracle or very rich person to help us, to ever get out of the pit of darkness that is our finances.

It's a good darn thing we believe in Miracles.

::laughing:: Cause one can dream right!

We know that God has had us in his hands guiding us through this.

We have felt his hand alot lately.

The people that walked away from us have been replaced by a couple hundred more and those that have replaced them mean so much more than we could ever tell you.

We have truly felt alone for so long and the past several months we have felt so loved, prayed for and supported.

I am sure that some people find it funny that I say I am loved and love complete strangers.

Even Nick thinks its a bit nuts how much I care about "complete strangers" but I do.

You all have lifted our spirits.

We can't even begin to thank all of you who have reached out when we have been in the worst places.

Josh is and has been having a lot of trouble handling everything that has been going on.

I am praying that with someone to help with Mason now, Josh and Carter will receive the attention they need. 

This has been extremely heart breaking as a Mother. 

I just don't know where to begin to help heal Josh's heart.

It is hard living with Mason right now.

It must be especially hard on Josh.

This funding is going to do more than just pay for Mason's extraordinary needs, it's going to bring our family back to a place where we can focus on being a family.

Where I can focus on being a better Mother.

Where maybe we can see more of Nick.

What a Christmas miracle.

The tears won't stop flowing.

But they are some of the best tears I have ever had.

I just need to Scream.

And as soon as the babies wake up I just might!

As for us we will be decorating our Christmas tree tonight as long as Nick is home.

It'll probably happen tomrw since I have a feeling he is going to get called in.

Celebrations are in order, whos coming?

God is just SO good.

“And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” – Phil 4:19