December 24, 2010

We have been busy little Bees.

We have been SO busy.
Last Friday started the Christmas spirit and we have yet to slow down!
(We found that Mason is going to have Full Benefits from the Government)
The house is tidy and almost clean...
the tree is finally decorated and the house feels of Christmas.
Decisions are being made.

Josh is home from school for two weeks...
we are driving each other crazy, but enjoying him being home for the most part.
We are taking Josh and his friend to Science World without the other boys next week.
It's going to be a surprise. 

Mason has had a really rough month, first with Pneumonia and then just his overall Mental status has been not as good.
We talked with the IDP worker as she came this week.
She had noticed the slipping of "Mason" and how much worse it has gotten.
"We all knew it was going to get worse. Didn't you?"
This was not a question and we knew it wasn't.
Nick replied with, "We didn't think it was going to happen SO fast."
And we really didn't.
We knew things were going to get worse, it just all happened so fast.
My heart has been heavy this week.
I have tried very hard to remain positive and I know now that we will have people working with Mason things can get better. 
It's just going to take a lot of ongoing work for the rest of his life.
I guess every once and a while it hits me all over again that this isn't going away.

Many decisions have been made between Nick and I in these past days.
I may not like alot of these decisions, 
they may hurt my heart to have to make...
but it's for the best.

Carter has copied some more words in the past few days, which has been a relief for him to start to have some words.
You can still tell he isn't hearing all of the words, but I really don't care at this moment.
His knew copied words are:
Uh oh 
"Di-Di" (Mason's name for soothers)
It has been amazing to watch Carter grow these last weeks.
The best part is he just comes and gives me hugs and kisses
He is worried when someone is hurt and tries to comfort them.
He loves to read all kinds of  books not just one over and over.
He is a baby who has grown into a toddler.
A toddler that has emotions.
I have missed these terribly.
It warms my heart in times that it feels so cold.
Carter was a gift from God.
I questioned God over and over about the timing of Carter.
I knew that once God decided that we were ready to know more about Mason, that he knew we would never decide to have more children.
Carter woke in his sleep last night and I rocked him for as long as I could.
For so many reasons.

This past year of blogging and sharing has really changed our lives.
Some people have commented on my "grammar and spelling". 
This blog is my journal, my spit it out and I don't care about those things.
I write and I never edit, I feel it would change the integrity of what I have written.
My feelings are my feelings.
Life is so open, there are no secrets and I don't care if people judge us.
I can't thank you enough for all the support we have received from both IRL people and people who are complete face strangers.
We love you all.

Merry Christmas. 
God Bless you and yours,
The Sears Fam


  1. Merry Christmas Sears Family from all of us here in the Miller house! I pray that you are blessed beyond your imagination and that Santa leaves many surprises for you guys! Praying for you and sending hugs.


  2. i love you my sweet sweet friend.

    Merry Christmas to you and your family.

  3. Merry Christmas Sears Family and many, many blessings for you in the coming New Year!! From the Forgie Family